eND of MAy oF 20o7~

hOW fASt tIME fLIes sOMEtimEs ScARes mE,,,
i mIght NOt kNOw wHEtHEr i HAve dOne gOod tHIngs gOod eNouGH,,,

untuk jadi pelita dan garam dunia memang tidak mudah,,,
semakin kita mendekatkan diri pada Tuhan,
semakin genjar pula pasukan penguasa kegelapan menyerbu kita,
dengan memberikan iming" yang dapat membutakan kita...

hanya dengan bisikan iblis, kita bisa aja jatuh kedalam dosa...
tapi justru disitu iman kita diuji, sampai seberapa kuat kita bisa bertempur...
layaknya film 300 yang sudah diputar di bioskop beberapa waktu lalu,
tanpa gentar mereka bertaruh melawan berpuluhribu pasukan demi negara mereka...

setan paling suka sama kelemahan kita...
dan paling mudah pula dia memakai kelemahan kita untuk membuat kita jatuh ke dalam dosa...
7 deadly sins contoh'a...
pride, envy, wrath/anger, greed, sloth, gluttony, and lust....

Pride: keinginan untuk lebih terlihat penting dan menarik daripada orang lain
Envy: kecemburuan akan hal yang diempunya oleh orang lain
Wrath/Anger: kemarahan yang tidak dapat dikontrol, selalu mencari pembalasan, dan tidak pernah mau mengakui kesalahan dirinya dengan menyertai berbagai macam alasan (self denial)
Greed: keinginan berlebih dalam hal material, rasa'a ini lebih kepada keinginan diluar batas kemampuan (sin of excess), atau bisa dikatakan tidak pernah puas akan apa yang dipunyai
Sloth: setelah melampaui beberapa arti kata, malah akhir'a masuk kepada kategori laziness yaitu kemalasan
Gluttony: overindulgence in any one thing yang bisa menyebabkan sia"
Lust: berhubungan dengan sexual desire

dari sini aja bisa kita perhatiin yang mana yang kira" kita ngga pernah satu hari enggak berbuat salah satu diantara 7 ituh?

di taun 26 ini...
pingin sih punya motivasi baru...

kalo liat kebelakang, hal apa yang udah aku gapai so far =]
mayan juga sih hehehehe...
1. always look at the bright side in every condition and situation...
2. always thank God for any single thing that happen, whether its good or bad...
3. try to get closer to God

dan yang perlu ditambah

- ngga mau judge orang (ini rada susah nih >_<)
- ngga mau keluh kesah

apalagi yah...

a new year of 150581

new year for me is 15 May, my date of birth...
new year = new resolution?
well...new year of me is something where at least i could promise myself to do better and better each day...many positive things are happening in my life...
simply start by coming back to where i belong...
since then, every single step i walk through has been nicely prepared by my creator...
the master of my life...
and i couldnt stop thank Him for letting me close to Him...
every detail of my life has been wonderfully planned, even the worse case that i had to feel like the insecurity, the envy, the stubborness, and maybe the seven deadly sin, would let me closer to Him...by keep asking for His guidance, keep talking to Him for what thing i should've done,what step i should've taken, what is His purpose for letting me feel one of the deadly sin...

nevertheless, God loves me so much that He gives me family, friends, who love me so much, especially my Andi...i really wondering what God was thinking when He created Andi...
he planned a surprise for my day..indeed never thought that i would have one for my day...
this surprise might be common thing for everyone...but for me, it was extraordinary...
he called out our close friends, and yet even my schoolmates...
he was out of reach yesterday due the surprise's preparation...and almost made me mad because i felt lonely and he couldn be reached by phone...

thank God for everything...
for being maturer is my choice...
and given another age is my destiny...
shall today become a step higher in God and in everything...
love Andi and all the invited crew who joined to give me a heart attack... ^-^